Pick_n_Roll19392

Now am gonna post the story of my life as short as possible.

I was born on 26th October, 1994. Born in a state of poverty, my father was and still is a government officer and my mother always been a house wife. I have 2 sisters both elder, so naturally am the youngest in my family.

We shifted to another state which split from the state I was born in. I was admitted in school at the age of 5 I guess (which was 1 year late :P). I was kickass in studies, scored highest marks in a minimum of 4 subjects in every exams till standard 8th it all changed (once in 6th standard I got the best student award, got first prize in Quiz for 3 consecutive years which still is a record). I loved FOOTBALL more than any sports, and so I had the record of 139 goals in my former school (I have been in only 2 schools till now) which still is a record (I played ST). I didn't watched football on TV though. Beside it I like Cricket (Indian sports most loved). My group had best students and kinda multi-talented guys. I talked to girls a lot :P

I started degrading my studies from 7th standard, which kept increasing year by year and got worsened till 10th standard and scored only 84% in 10th final examinations. Then my father was transferred to another city in the same state which is the capital city too. Till then I was the biggest noob in computer and electronics stuffs, I only played Road Rash, Dave and Midtown Madness. We came to this city, but the time we shifted the admissions in school had stopped but somehow got into this one-of-the-most-expensive school because of my fathers position and sources.

My downfall was just started and it reached to climax when I reached into 11th standard and failed in 4 subjects (Maths, Physics, Chemistry and Computer Science). From the beginning, my parents didn't allowed me goto outside and meet my friends much, I spent and still spend most of the time in home (but now I tell lies to go outside with my friends lol). I got addicted to the evil box called TV. But I loved my passion for computer (and till date I love my PC, been using my PC for 11 years now, specs changed though). After spending more and more time on internet I started losing my social skills, I became a shy guy, stopped talking to girls in school and got frustrated inside and now full of anger (someday I will beat that teacher who hit me).

But in 2011 when I got my graphics card and started playing cool games and one of em was NBA 2K9 and then NBA 2K12 I got involved in Basketball a lot (a still my favorite game though I don't play it) and also USA. I told my parents and sisters I want to become NBA player, wanna goto America and get coached, obviously they thought I can't make it and dreams shattered. I failed again in 11th final examinations, had the chance to repeat 11th but they took re-test and I cleared it, huh. I started losing faith in GOD and alas lost it completely (I haven't said GOD for 6 months now, just type it sometimes here).

Note: When I was at best stage my sisters were poor in studies and I always teased them (also in front of my friends sometime) which I regret till date. When I started getting poorer my sister topped in Biology in school in 12th final exams and I learned think before you speak. She never boasted about herself but proved my doing so. I was ashamed.

Till date am pursuing the DOWNFALL, am low on confidence, self-esteem and have no life, no soul and no inspiration. Till date I don't know why I goto school and why I am on this earth. I am jealous of lot of people.

I am gutted I can't payback my parents what they expected of me. My father was University and State topper and well-know personality in the state unlike me.

And that's why I call myself a LOSER because I am and now I don't fake to be cool, I am what I am.

Lastly, the person I love the most in my life is my Grand Mother (Father's mother), she's the most cute person I've ever seen in my life.

Regards

P.S. Will post a Part. 2 with little bit more which I missed here.