Good to see you back, I see from your status its not getting any easier I think the head stuff is far harder than the physical side of it. It does get easier once you stick with it and don't ignore that side of things, get someone you can dump on somebody that knows what its about and been through it so you can have a good talk with them and even have a good rant to let it out.
Holy See (Vatican)
The Wall
hope all is well!
Merry Christmas